I just booked the train ticket from Stockholm to Degerfors after I landed in Sweden the 5th of March. All of a sudden it all seems very close. It really scares me. I don't feel ready at all to do my dissertation. To defend my thesis. Stand on a stage with my big belly, in a dress that I'm not to comfortable in (who the hell is comfortable in ANYTHING in week 36?). Being questioned by a real professional in my area. I know I'll probably start sweating and in the middle of everything I probably will have an urgent need to pee. So instead of creating positive pictures in my hormonal, slow functional brain I create these horror scenarios. That's really smart! NOT! When I really need to focus and study I just think of these "what if" scenarios. THINK POSITIVE for god's sake, how hard can it be!
Now I'm going to try to ease my heartburn from hell with a couple of "tums" (one of my dearest friends right now) and get my pregnant butt to bed. Goodnight!
Of course it's hard, but you can do it! Big hugs!
ReplyDeleteWhat was it Åsa - mindfulness? Could you give me some of that???
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