It's here for real.

The autumn is here for real and it's just getting darker and colder. I ran home from work today (yes, I've been keeping up my good habit) and it was to cold for short pants and t-shirt. My hands were like frozen lumps when I arrived home... Now I could think "bloody hell autumn is cold and boring" but I don't, instead I'm thinking that it's going to be nice to buy some new warm running clothes. Because shopping is always fun.

The girls just love it right now... No hard feelings that summer ended to fast...

Big mistake...

Speaking of the constant worrying that comes with parenthood ... Big mistake to watch this movie if you're already a worried parent. And if you're not you're bound to be after seeing this creepy movie. Excellent actors but a terrible and horrifying story. H rented it and thought it was a comedy, boy was he wrong...

Disgusting!

To eat cookies, cake, pizza, chocolate and chips during the same day is just disgusting. Yesterday wasn't the best day from a nutritional point of view...

About worrying.

It's absolutely no end to how much I worry about the girls. That they're going to get seriously ill, run away, choke, fall down from a tree in the park, get hit by a car, sleepwalking out from the apartment (I mean it could happen that we forget to lock the door, we're after all humans...), that they're going to get bullied at school, be unhappy, get eating disorders, start taking drugs, get bad boyfriends and so on...

When I tell people about these fears they usually look at me with a superior little smile, twist their heads a bit and say "This comes with parenthood and you know, small children small problems, big children big problems"....

Is that suppose to be a comfort?! The little worrying ache in my stomach only gets bigger and if it's like this now how is it going to be like in say 10-12 years when the girls are teenagers? I'm probably going to have both an ulcer and a psychologist...

How can the sweetest thing on earth be the source of so much worry?

My autumn goal!

Why stop with the autumn theme just yet, autumn has just begun! I just signed up to run "Hässelbyloppet", another 10K race. My goal is of course to beat my recent 10K time 54:49. Better get my ass (and my legs) moving...

Autumn survey!

Continuing on the autumn theme and thought a little survey could cheer us up. I found this one here and translated it myself. Enjoy!

1. Do you feel mightily happy and cheerful now that fall is upon us?
Quite happy and pleased actually. I like fall and is also looking forward to getting in to my work more and finding out the logistics around it. Challenging but doable!

2. What will be your most used garment during this fall?
Probably my old, worn out, black leather jacket. I'm so comfortable in it and I still think it's really cool.

3. What did you do this time last year - how was your life?
I was a stay-at-home-mum in Montreal with one toddler and a baby to handle. H was working on getting a job here in Sweden and I was keeping my fingers crossed.

4. What do you do all day long really?
I'm trying my best to figure out how to work hard and enthusiastically and be a good mother. It's hard but it has to be, as mentioned before, doable!

5. What kind of haircut will you have?
I was thinking about letting it grow out to be really long. I didn't have really long hair since I was a child and it would be nice. But then I thought about it a bit more and realized I'm way to comfortable in the haircut I have now and besides, my hair gets flat and boring when it's long...

6. What kind of music do you listen to?
I listen a lot to a Swedish sing and songwriter named Laleh. Her latest album "Sjung" is really good.

7. What do you read?
I'm reading "The snowman" by Jo Nesbö. It's the seventh book about inspector Harry Hole and if you didn't read them you have to! They're absolutely addictive. Just make sure you don't start late one evening if you're going up for work, the risk is that you'll stay up half the night...

8. What's your best beauty tip for autumn?
Fresh air and exercise.

9. Are you in love?
Yes, madly.

10. What did your last SMS say?
"Home in one minute"

11. Do you have any regrets this years?
Nope.

12. What was best this summer?
Everything! It was a great summer! We did so much and the girls grew, evolved and had a terrific time.

13. What was worst this summer?
OK, the weather could have been better, at least a bit warmer.

14. Did it turn out the way you expected?
Yes, it was just to short as usual.

15. What do you want?
I want a pulse watch, something like this to take my running to the next level.

16. Last seen movie?
Oh, some embarrassing comedy with Steve Carell that H wanted to see...

17. Last bought clothing?
A white blouse and a black dress. I've already worn them several times and like them a lot.

18. How do you see the future?
Bright and exciting with a touch of anxiety.

It's not all bad.

Fall is here and it's easy to fall in depression, but here's a few things that I just love about the season when Sweden falls into darkness:

• Apples and all the other fruits we pick in September/October! Makes me miss Quebec a bit, apple picking is a big thing there...
• It's totally allowed to stay in bed and cudle, with your partner, your children or yourself - wonderful!
• The fresh air! It's nothing quite like the freshness in fall air that just wants me to inhale forever and ever...
• Lit candles for breakfast and supper time - I love it!
• All the beautiful colors in nature...

 Apple picking in Quebec, September last year